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About me:

I’ve been in love with questioning things for as long as I can remember, always wanting to know why things happened and how they worked, which I recall my father getting somewhat frustrated with after tirelessly answering inane questions for hours on end. I spent most of my school life daydreaming or writing stories, only being able to focus on the things that peaked my curiosity, of this, my teachers did not approve. Not only a daydreamer but a talker, a loud talker, and some times a back chatter or nuisance causer. It wasn’t until my adult life had begun ,many mishaps and incidents later, that I decided to try my hand at study again. My curiosity for how to help people drew me to study counselling, which incidentally, was where I learnt how to help myself. After discovering that many of my behaviours were undesirable and that my emotions were drastically out of check I decided that something had to change. I was staring out the window of my Tafe watching the trains pass as my teachers voice was a mere hum in the back ground when I realised it was still happening. I couldn’t focus and this was something I was interested in, how as an adult am I still unable to control my self. It was the next assessment I was doing when I came across the diagnostic criteria for Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder (ADHD). I spiralled into a research black hole that came with it a whirlwind of emotions. Watching videos of people talking about their struggles and suddenly feeling like I was no longer alone was the strangest feeling I’ve had to date. See for years I’d felt like an alien, observing myself and the world from the outside. Constantly getting trapped in my own brain, watching life go by from the sidelines. My life has changed drastically since I received my diagnosis, finally having the means to understand myself and my differences. To look after myself properly and achieve things I never could before. Things that would seem small or obvious to a lay person were hurdles to me and the sense of accomplishment I felt for finally being able to put my clothes away after 25 years of living with them in a heaped pile on a chair was life changing.

I’m just bumbling through life figuring things out here and there. I also love to write so hence, the blog. Welcome to the inner workings of my daily mind! I hope to share things I learn, or struggles I face, in hopes to maybe help someone else out there discover something new.